Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Got to Dance!

A couple of days ago a friend posted the following video on her FB page. She warned us to grab some tissue before we watched it. I didn't follow her advice, but I wished that I had when I had tears rolling down my face! They were mostly tears of joy, but some filled with sadness as well.

Watch these Down syndrome cuties cut loose with their siblings, in an expression of dance. And, tell me you didn't get a smile on your face, with perhaps a few tears mixed in as well!

*Pause music on the right-hand sidebar of this blog to hear video!*

Told ya that you'd smile, and maybe even need a tissue! :)

I am always amazed by the emotions that come forth when people are around those who have Down syndrome. I'm not sure why it amazes me, because I have experience with the joy they bring to others! I really don't think it's possible to not become happy when you are around such fun, innocent and perfect human beings!

I was seriously crying tears of joy as I watched them dance with abandon. But, then the tears of sadness crept in. I pictured Gavin being able to dance with such energy and happiness.....and my tears turned to sobs and longing.

I long for Gavin to have such ability! I wish with all my heart that Gavin hadn't suffered a life-altering stroke, and that he could be up.....dancing.....and running! It made me think of the "What if's." What if Gavin hadn't had a severe brain injury? What if Gavin was able to talk, walk, run, play and lead a more purposeful life?

I will never know the possibilities that Gavin might have had.......and this breaks my heart!

I do believe that Gavin dances in his own way though. Sometimes he gets so excited and his body just starts a movin'! I choose to believe that this is Gavin's way of dancing in the only way that he knows how to dance. And, Guess what? This Momma thinks it's the best dancing that she has ever seen!

And, when I see him wiggling, moving, smiling and squealing his deep squeals....I know that Gavin is doing the best he is able to, to come out of his stroke-damaged brain, and that he is trying so hard to relate with us and share with those around him.....So, he REALLY is leading a purposeful life!

His purpose is to bring happiness to others, and to teach us lessons of gratitude! And, I believe that Gavin does his job very well!

On a slightly different note:

For the past 3 years I have had the desire to adopt a child who has Ds. I've thought about it, and I've prayed about it. I've even tried to talk myself out of this crazy desire! I've told myself that it's just not possible, and that we just can't take on such a huge undertaking! I've done everything that I can to put it out of my mind....but this desire just won't go away!

I keep asking myself why I desire to adopt another sweetie with Ds. I ask myself why I have this feeling that our family just isn't complete yet. I ask why I want another child, when my hands and life are so busy with the 4 that I already have! I've woke up many mornings telling myself that our family is complete and to STOP thinking about this crazy thought!

But, it won't go away!

Joel has listened to me for the past 3 years. I'm quite sure that he has listened with closed ears most of the time! :) But, lately he has been praying about this as well. He knows that it's important to me, and he is willing to seriously consider this huge undertaking.

I'm asking that you pray for us in this matter. We feel that the answer is there, but it just hasn't been shown to us yet. Please pray that we will make wise choices and that we are shown a clear answer in this tough decision!

I know that we have lots of love to give, and many opportunities to share with another child. I also know that there are many Ds blessings out there without a Mom and a Dad.....who are waiting to be loved and cared for. It breaks my heart to think that they aren't being given the chance to grow, to be loved, to be given opportunities that children need to be given, and the chance to DANCE with abandonment in a family who adores them!

"Let them praise His name with dance; let them sing praises to Him with the timbrel and harp. For the Lord takes pleasure in His people; He will beautify the humble with salvation." Psalm 149:3-4

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Gavin Adores His Brothers!

Gavin has been sick. But, what is new?! Gavin has had a really rough couple of months! He just can't seem to catch a break, and I think it's beginning to wear on him.....and I know that it's wearing on me! He has been catching every little thing that comes around him, and it's been hitting him hard every time! Plus, he has been generous in sharing his germs with me......so life around here hasn't been the most enjoyable lately. I can't wait until the germs of winter are gone, and we have some consistantly nice weather and fewer illnesses! I need this so badly! And, so does my sweet Gavin!

The other day I was trying to take a few pictures of Gavin. He hasn't been his happy self, due to all his sickness, so I couldn't get a smile out of him no matter how hard I tried!

Then along came big brother Jake! He always likes to "pet" Gavin on the head.

And, Gavin knows that Jake is around as soon as he feels that little "pet" on his head! He simply adores Jake! In fact, Gavin adores all of his brothers!

And, here's the proof!

All it took to get a smile from Gavin was a visit from one of his brothers! Thanks Jacob for helping me get a smile, and a great picture of our little man! :)

"Love never fails." 1 Corinthians 13:8a