Wednesday, August 15, 2007

I've been quite anxious lately. Gavin is still having seizures. They increased his anti-seizure meds again this week. Hopefully this will work. They also told us that his EEG showed that he is having seizures often. This means that we don't even see most of the seizures he is having. If he is in a contant state of seizures, it's no wonder he isn't progressing developmentally! Please pray that the meds work or they find out what will. I read something today that could be helpful. I plan on sharing it with the neurologist.

I've also been anxious because Caleb and I have had a head and chest cold. No big deal for us, but if Gavin gets it.....! Please pray that he stays healthy! When we left the hospital last month a couple of staff said that they would "see us next month!" They were just joking with us, but this has been Gavin's track record! So, it's been over a month and I feel like I'm sitting on a time bomb, waiting for Gavin to explode with some illness and send us back to the hospital! This is no way to live! I hate feeling anxious! Thankfully I read something else today that has helped to change my outlook. It said: "Start living life for the moment, not worrying about what tomorrow holds." I knew this of course, but it was a great reminder for me! I actually felt like I could breathe a little deeper after the reminder! I find myself looking too far ahead some days. When I do this I usually come up with a much dimmer future than what God has in store for me. So, again I'm reminded to take one day at a time and to try to see the positives in that day. When I do this I always find many more things to smile about than to worry about! Like, for example, Caleb's deep and infectious laugh, or Gavin's cute and chubby thighs, or Nolan's willingness to play with and teach Caleb(even though Caleb is so bossy!), and finally, Jacob's sweet smile and "Love You!" that he tells me several times a day! So, today I'm thankful for another reminder and a chance to enjoy TODAY, instead of worrying about tomorrow!

Thanks for your continued prayers! We are thankful for you too!

Love, Alicia and Family

4 comments:

Kimberly Hass said...

Alicia,

So sorry to hear about Gavin's continued seizures. He (and the rest of the VanderWall clan) is in my prayers daily. I continue to pray that the doctors can find out what is causing this and correct it for him.

Thank you for sharing your wonderful outlook. It's true: we so often get caught up in the 'what ifs' and don't enjoy the small, day-to-day things. Thank you for reminding us all of this!

Hope you are feeling much better soon and pray, also, that Gavin stays healthy.

Love you,
Kimberly

Annette Selden said...

Alicia,

I continue to pray for Gavin and all of you daily.

One time a friend told me that God's mercies are new every morning. He will give us what we need to face that day. The next day, He will give us the mercies for that day. It helped me remember that whatever came along, I would have what I needed for that day.

I will be praying for wisdom for Gavin's doctor--that he will be able to determine a course of treatment that will help. And I will pray that Gavin doesn't catch your cold! (My kids have had colds this past week, too. Isn't that weird for this time of year?)

Antje Heckel said...

Hi from the Heckel Family - we are thinking of you often!

With Love

Anonymous said...

I think of you guys daily, and continue to pray for the little Vinster and the entire family. ~Missy~