Monday, May 5, 2008

(Un)Answered Prayers



Every morning when I hear Gavin yawning his cute little yawn and 'talking' to us from his crib, I get so excited! I just can't wait to go pick him up and squeeze him! He is just so huggable and precious! Some times I think to myself, "What if we didn't have him?" What if my prayers of a healthy baby had been answered? What if?! Well.....our life would be a whole lot easier! But, would we think it was easy if we didn't have the knowledge of what difficult is? Our life would not consist of so much uncertainty; Will he ever sit up, walk, talk or live for many years to come? But, isn't our life as children of God very certain already?! Our life would probably be filled with a lot more fun; no meds, no nebs, less Dr. appointments, getting out more. But, would we realize just how blessed we are?! We wouldn't have as much responsibility. But, would our life be filled with such purpose and knowledge of just how awesome and sufficient God's grace is?! Our prayers were answered. We just didn't realize the benefits of having them answered the way God intended them to be answered until after our minds were expanded by having Gavin! God's gift to us in Gavin has been the worst gift I've ever been given, yet the BEST! Sounds crazy, but true! God's plan is always going to be more perfect than my own! I just hope that I will always keep my thoughts on Him and trust that He will give me the peace and strength to sustain whatever he sends my way! I think about this a lot when I go to retrieve my wonderful gift each morning. I pray that God gives me many more mornings with Gavin and all my boys! What answered prayers they are!

Gavin remains seizure free and is almost off the Phenobarb! If he continues to not have seizures, they may try to taper him off another one of his seizures meds. He also continues to stay healthy, even when the rest of us have come down with something! This is such a blessing! As the weather gets nicer, we may even attempt to take him out more often and see how he does with it. It can be difficult taking him out since he doesn't sit up on his own and he has a feeding pump running and hooked up to him about 18 hours a day, but we'll figure it out. I know it would help me not to feel so restless, getting out more often! We would appreciate your continued prayers for Gavin's health and for our peace. We are so thankful for the support that we have been given and for the love shown to us! Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! I've decided to try something different with messages left to us on this site. If you leave us a message, I am going to try to reply to each one in the comment section. I really appreciate the messages left for us and want it to feel a little more personable and to also thank you when you leave one! I got this idea from a friend's blog. (Annette, great idea!)

Hope you are all enjoying God's gift of Spring! Love and prayers for all of you!

"The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake." Psalm 23:1-3

8 comments:

Amy said...

*SNIFF* Who is it you are always able to make me cry (in the good way)?!?! This post might be my favorite ever. You are SO right about unanswered prayers!! I think about how many wonderful people and experiences I might have missed out on, had God given me what I THOUGHT I wanted and/or needed...scary to think about, really! Gavin is such a precious, lovely gift, and I have also changed my outlook because of him.

As for those yawns, they are TOO MUCH. My ovaries skip a beat every time I witness one...that stinker! ;o)

I love and miss you all!! (((HUGS)))

The VW's said...

Amy,

I'm so happy to hear that your ovaries are skipping beats!! I can't wait to be an Aunt! Sorry, I know I bug you a lot about this! But, I'm still glad!! I love you! Thanks for your love and support! Hope you had a great weekend and trip!

Alicia

Inspired said...

You are amazing!! That is one of my favorite songs and you bring true meaning to it. Hopefully spring will give you some relief on feeling restless. I know Rena has been getting her energy out. Can't wait to see you all again in a few weeks! This time we will have time to visit : )
Love,
Julie

The VW's said...

Julie,

Yes, it's a great song! Thanks for all your support and love over the last couple of years! See ya soon! Love ya!

Alicia

Annette Selden said...

I do understand what you mean by best/worst blessings. You really do learn about what is important, and I know I have a sense of thankfulness (most of the time) that I never had before. And you should try to get out! (There were other reasons I couldn't get out at one point in my life, but it would have been so good for me if I could have!) Let us know if we can be of any help with that.

And my blogger friend Julia is actually the one who "taught" me to respond to comments. So I really can't take all the credit for that . . .

Gavin is looking mighty handsome!

The VW's said...

Annette,

I'm glad that you understand the best/worst thing. I felt kind of bad for writing that, but it's the truth. The best definately outweighs the worst most days, only through God's grace! Thanks for your messages of support!

Alicia

Baby Jacob said...

Thank God for unanswered prayers. Well said.

Jacob Ryan
fahmer.blogspot.com

The VW's said...

Jacob,

Thankyou! You are one of God's best (un)answered prayers!!! Keep being tough little Jacob! Your family is inspirational! We'll be praying for you!

Alicia and Family