Yesterday I made a visit to one of the hospitals that Gavin has spent many a day and night at. Thankfully this time around it was to go to visit my cousin's beautiful new baby daughter! She is so precious! I love babies! Anyway, it was a weird experience for me walking through those halls again. I started to feel really anxious as we drove through the parking structure, that I drove into so many mornings and evenings while Gavin was hospitalized. All these memories came flooding back as I walked those halls and smelled all the familiar smells. I've been back a couple of times for outpatient visits for Gavin and to drop off our Christmas bags that we made up for the patients, but otherwise it's been a long time since I've had to make that trek.
It wasn't a good feeling at all, but I was so relieved to be there for a joyous occasion this time around! I kept saying to myself, "Thank You God! Thank You that we haven't had to be here for over a year and that Gavin has been as healthy as he has been! THANK YOU!" I was feeling very grateful, that's for sure!
Having to spend a long period of time caring for a child or loved one, in the hospital, is so very tiring! It is such an emotional time and ages you beyond belief! It breaks my heart knowing that there are so many having to do this right now! If you know of anyone going through a time such as this, please be extra kind to this person and support them the best that you can. God gets us through, but having others around to show you love and care is so tangible and helpful! We were blessed with many helping hands throughout Gavin's many hospitalizations and I really don't think we could have done so well without this love and support! So, THANK YOU again to those of you who supported us through those trying days!!!
I don't know what the future holds for Gavin. I know that he will likely spend more days in the hospital, due to his heart and lung conditions, but today I'm feeling VERY THANKFUL to be hangin' out here at home with him! Our days aren't always easy, but they sure are easier when spent at home with this little guy!
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7