Friday, February 20, 2009

Why?! - (Plus an update)

Blogging has been such a blessing to me. I have found comfort in being able to express myself and get things off my chest and mind. I have 'met' some amazing families who have been such a comfort to me and who have shown me that I am not alone in this job of parenting a child with special needs. It has given me an outlet when I feel so lonely in this role of mine, that unfortunately keeps me couped up at home more than I would like to be. But.....it has also brought a burden to my heart. I read about so many children who are sick, their families that are struggling trying to care for them and about parents that have or are in the process of having to say goodbye to their child way too soon! Some nights I wake up so sad thinking about these families and find myself trying to remember all of them, so that I can pray for them.

This week I have felt the burden more than usual. I think it's because so many of the families seem to be suffering with illnesses and hospitalizations lately. This afternoon I went to one of these families' sites and learned that their son would likely not survive much longer. My heart aches for this family and I have found myself in tears this afternoon, thinking about how they must be feeling right now. Please pray for this family and their precious boy Tucker! I pray that they will find peace and strength in God alone!

I purchased a book awhile ago titled; "How could a loving God...?", written by Ken Ham. I started to read it a few times, but always found myself distracted. Today I am feeling so confused and thought that I should go to this book for some answers. I'm finding that the answer to "Why?" is not an easy one to come to. Being a Christian, I know that there is a reason for EVERYTHING! But, being human as well, brings about so many emotions that are just so difficult to accept sometimes. So, the question of the day is "Why?" I know the answer lies in God's plan and that His plan is always perfect. I just wish getting to that purpose wasn't so sad sometimes!

This week I've found myself feeling slightly sorry for myself, due to a sick kiddo and being confined to the house even more than usual. But, this afternoon I find myself sad for someone else. My 'problems' seem so unimportant at the moment! I should just be thankful for my children and that I have a comfortable home to be stuck in! Please pray for Tucker and his family and go to their site (On the sidebar of this blog - "Tucker's Heart") to offer kindness and prayers! I can only imagine how extremely emotional this time must be for them. Also, try to remember how blessed that you are today!


"And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God." Romans 12:2

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Saturday Update:

Lastnight at, 9:30 P.M., Tucker passed away. Although I have never even met him or his wonderful family, I will forever be touched by his life and them. My heart breaks for them! The consolation in this pain is that he is now perfectly healed and with his Father in heaven, Who loves him more than anyone could! Please keep this family in your prayers! May they be given peace and strength as they suffer this great loss!

"And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:7

4 comments:

hennhouse said...

Such truth you speak. I have found such a great community in my "blogging friends." Some on different journeys than I am on. Some headed in a different direction. Some sad. Some happy. Some lonely. Some in crisis. Some in peace. But isn't it amazing to know that God loves us all. ALL.

You, my friend, are such a blessing to me.

Heather said...

Kindred spirits you and I .... the beauty of blogging indeed!Hoping you find peace this weekend and I will say a prayer for Tucker and his family.

Marissa said...

Thank you for visiting my blog and leaving your comment. I have actually looked in on your blog from time to time. Your Gavin reminds me of my cousin's son, such a sweet little man.

I'm going to add your blog to the list of blogs I follow. I look forward to getting to know you and your wonderful family!

I certainly will pray for Tucker's family. That is the hardest and most awesome thing about blogging for me. I feel have sent pieces of my heart all over this country just by reading about and praying for these wonderful kids and their families.

Alicia (I noticed we share the same name... cool!)

Lacey said...

A friend of ours passed away Saturday also. My husband often blames God for everything, everytime he hears of a beautiful child dying to soon, I don't know what to think most days.