Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Starting to Feel Sad Already.....

I went out shopping lastnight, which was the first time in about a month that I was without at least one of my children. I have seriously not been alone for I don't know how long. I thought that I would enjoy my time away from children, and I did for about an hour, but then I actually started to miss them! Am I crazy or what?!

I think that I started to feel sad because I saw school supplies at the store. Then suddenly, I was so sad! I am dreading the start of school again! I'm not one of those moms that need a lot of time away from her children. I look forward to a little breather once in a while, but for the most part, I would rather be with my children than anyone else in the world. I can't figure out why either, because when I am with them constantly, they drive me crazy after awhile! But, when I get the chance to get out on my own, I spend a lot of my time thinking of them and wishing that they were with me!

I've decided that I must enjoy noise, fighting and craziness! I'm a glutten for punishment I suppose. Don't ask me why, I can't figure it out myself! I guess, I just really love my boys! I am not very good about sharing them with others either. I'm a little selfish I guess. It's pretty sad when you can't even figure yourself out! Oh well.

Anyway, I'm feeling sad that summer is flying by so fast. Crazy fast! And, I don't like it one bit! I have even considered homeschooling our boys recently, but I know that I wouldn't do a good enough job of it, so off to school I'll have to send them.

Until then, I'm going to enjoy every single moment with them! Well, except the arguing, boredom, disobedience, etc. Actually, I obviously enjoy all of these things as well! I seriously must be nuts!

Here are my boys on a nature walk that we took recently.



I LOVE SUMMER!!!!!


"The day is Yours, the night also is yours; You have prepared the light and the sun. You have set all the borders of the earth; You have made summer and winter." Psalm 74:16-17

10 comments:

Lacey said...

My kids start school next week. I hate it, it makes me feel like summer is over. I'm the same way with my kids. We do everything with them. They are our life. I do believe they need to go to school though. For social interaction, and High school was so much fun, I would never make my kids miss that.

Hope said...

I agree with you! I dread them going back to school. Summer is flying by so fast.

Carla said...

Alicia...don't even go there! Homeschooling is NOT an option for you!! O.K., now it's my turn to be selfish...Our kids love having your kids in their classes. Their personalities---what makes them who they are---are a very important component to the classroom dynamics. They would be missed...a lot. (Am I putting words into my girls' mouths? Maybe, but I can't help but believe they would miss your boys. :)) I'm happy you are sending them again!

I'm with you. I love spending time with the kids/having them home. The house is so quiet when they are at school. If not for the dog... :)

Tamara said...

Hey there girl! Good to see a photo with such green and a handsome pack of men, big and little! I thought of you on our way home as we flew over Michigan and wished I could of slung on a shoot and exited the plane to visit you! Don't you wish it were that easy! When does school start for you? My boys go back August 7th!!! I can't believe how quickly time flies by either! I am right there with you, crazy with them and crazy missing them without em! Thinking of you friend and posted on my blog for you! Photo's to come soon.... jet lag and I am off to bed at 6:30pm! Miss and love ya girl!!!

Tamara said...

Hey there girl! Good to see a photo with such green and a handsome pack of men, big and little! I thought of you on our way home as we flew over Michigan and wished I could of slung on a shoot and exited the plane to visit you! Don't you wish it were that easy! When does school start for you? My boys go back August 7th!!! I can't believe how quickly time flies by either! I am right there with you, crazy with them and crazy missing them without em! Thinking of you friend and posted on my blog for you! Photo's to come soon.... jet lag and I am off to bed at 6:30pm! Miss and love ya girl!!!

shan said...

Alicia, I'm dreading it too! Kindergarten is too much for me:) Also, email me your address, I have a surprise for you and Gavin that will hopefully help little man to sit a bit straighter in his stroller!

Alicia said...

I was just talking about this with my hubby the other day when we took a few hours away from Marissa for ourselves. I really long for a break from her but I start to miss her soon after I leave. It is even hard for me to say goodbye in the first place, and we are only gone for a few hours at a time!!

I hear ya on this one! :)

Amy said...

I think it's great that you feel this way! I must admit that even when I'm not around our DOGS, I get a physical longing to be with them again, so I can't even imagine how I will be with babies without fur. ;o)

As for homeschooling, well, I'm not sure how I feel about that, but I greatly commend anyone who has the tenacity to do it! In case you want to read more about a real-life experience, go here:

http://thepioneerwoman.com/homeschooling/

Not only is the Pioneer Woman HILARIOUS (and clean in her hilarity!), but she's also a homeschooler and amazing cook. You'll love her site as a place to get new recipes, as well as ideas on projects to do with the kids to jog their brains. Have fun!

(((HUGS)))

Annette Gysen said...

I'm not a homeschooler, nor have I ever wanted to be, but I definitely feel your pain about the end of summer. I can't believe the school supplies are out in force . . . Depressing!

Anonymous said...

I am too. I got teary eyes buying school supplies this week! :( Gideon is looking forward to seeing Caleb though! ~Erin Young