If Gavin could talk, this would be so much easier!

This is how Gavin has looked for most of the weekend. Or, If he wasn't sleeping, he was whining or crying. He has been miserable! And, he can't even tell me where he hurts.....and this stinks!

I took him to Urgent Care Saturday afternoon, because he had a fever of 104 degrees, increased respirations and an elevated heartrate. He was also throwing up, despite his Nissen wrap which means that he shouldn't be able to throw-up. They did a chest x-ray, cathed him for a urinalysis and checked him out good, but nothing was found to be abnormal with him, besides his symptoms. The doctor put him on an antibiotic and said that he could be coming down with aspiration pneumonia, but at the time, Gavin's x-ray looked "good for his lungs." And then, we were sent home.

It has been a LONG weekend! And, it has been very trying on me, not knowing what is wrong with Gavin! I hate to hear him cry so much, especially since he rarely does this! I just wish that he could tell me what is wrong! Since I have no way of knowing where he hurts, my mind has been working overtime, thinking of all that could be wrong with him that could have been so easily missed.

The doctor at Urgent Care said that I was a "very informed Mother." While I took this as a compliment, I was mostly thinking to myself, "I so wish that I could go back to my days of innocence, and not know so much!" The things that I have to rattle off to the doctors and nurses are numerous and I would love to be innocent of all of this "wealth of knowledge." It would be so nice to just be a "mom" again!

But, I am no longer just a "mom" and Gavin has "taught" me a lot in these last few years. So, I just have to accept it and try to do the best for my precious boy.

He has had a continuous fever, even with Tylenol and Motrin being given intermittently and he continues to spit-up a lot! Between the crying and the spitting up, I am a very grumpy Momma! But, not grumpy enough to not feel so sad for my little man. I would love it if he could just tell me what is wrong!

This morning, I do see a light at the end of this dark tunnel. He actually gave me a smile this morning and his fever is low grade now. It was such a glorious moment when he gave me his little smile today! Gavin is normally a very happy boy and seeing him so sad has just about broken my heart! I think that whatever this day holds, this smile has given me enough fuel to keep on going. So, I'm very thankful for this!

Please pray for my sweet boy! I want my typical Gavin back! He has been getting sick every month lately, and this is 2 times already, in the last month. I don't know where he is coming down with all of this, because the rest of us have been healthy. I suppose it's from school.....which makes me think about the pros and cons of sending him to school. I guess I'll have to keep thinking about this one.

I just noticed that it has been about 2 weeks since I have posted anything on here. We have been a very busy family, with lots of changes going on in our lives. (Some good, some sad and some with lots of uncertainty.) Hopefully, things will slow down for us and I'll get the chance and the energy to get back on track with my posts.

Thanks for your prayers!

"I know that You can do everything, and that no purpose of Yours can be withheld from You." Job 42:2