Recently, Jacob and I were watching Gavin play with his toys on the floor. Jacob adores Gavin and seriously loves having him as a brother! But, along with the great feelings of having Gavin as a brother, there are also feelings of sadness. While we were watching Gavin play, Jacob looked at me with longing in his eyes and said; "I wish that Gavin could walk." All that I could say was, "Me too."
Sometimes I forget that having a special needs child, also affects our other children. I mean, I always think of the things that we could be doing with them if Gavin were able to do more, and how this makes me feel sad because as a parent, you want to give your children the world! But, I never really think that our other boys feel sad because Gavin isn't able to do much. They seem to take it all in stride and not let things bother them.
So, when Jacob said this, it made me feel sad for him, as Gavin's oldest brother.
After he said this, he went on to say how much more fun Gavin would be to have around, if he could run around with them. He imagined the things that Gavin would be doing right now if he could walk, talk and use his mind to it's fullest.
He saw Gavin running out of the house., Getting into the trash., Wrestling his brothers., Talking back to his brothers., Climbing into things and onto things.....etc. He said that he thought that Gavin would have been a little stinker and quite naughty, if Gavin hadn't suffered his major stroke.
And, I totally agree with Jacob. Gavin would have been a master trouble maker....there is no doubt in this! All I have to do is look at Gavin's brothers and what a handfull they are, to know this!
Oh, how I wish that we were pulling our hair out trying to keep Gavin in line!
Jacob wishes this as well.
Gavin DOES have ways of driving us crazy though. He may not be able to sit up on his own or walk and talk, but he definitely finds ways to be naughty! This is how I know that he probably would have been my most active child!
I know that I can't go back to the pre-stroke child, so I guess I'll have to find pleasure in the naughtiness that Gavin does get himself into.
Here are some pictures of Gavin's newest pleasure and naughty behavior:
Notice him yelling and enjoying his masterpiece!
He has found a way to grab onto the sides of his pipe bar, which his toys hang from, and pull it until it falls down and comes apart. He does this several times a day and he has even broken a piece of the pipe right off! Thankfully it still stands, even with a missing piece!
I think that he's quite proud of himself too!
Another thing that he does to drive his Momma nuts, is to grind his teeth. This noise is right up there with nails on a chalkboard! And, there is nothing that I can do to stop him from doing this!
He even smiles while doing, like he knows that he is being naughty!
I thought about getting this on video for all of you to hear, but then I thought that I would be nice instead!
Anyway, I sure do wish that Gavin was running around with his brothers and driving me crazy like the rest of them......but I do know that Gavin's purpose is different then their's is.
So, instead of running after Gavin, Jacob and I will just be imagining what Gavin could be doing and laugh about the images that come into our heads.
Oh.....and we'll also be covering our ears to drown out the grinding noise and we'll be picking up his toy bar for the 10th time today! :)
"Because the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men." 1 Corinthians 1:25