Despite doing all that I could think of to try to not let him catch the colds that Nolan and Caleb keep passing back and forth to each other, Gavin got sick! I made them stay out of the room that Gavin spends most of his time in each day. I made a bed for Gavin in the Living Room so that he didn't have to sleep in the same room with Caleb when he was sick. I was very strict about them covering mouths when coughing or sneezing and I stood over them while they washed their hands to make sure that they scrubbed them until they were sore! I opened windows a little to let out the bad germs and let in some fresh air. I don't know what more I could have done, but the fact is, Gavin is sick!
I hate when Gavin is sick! For one thing, it breaks my heart! Plus, I am just so anxious when he is sick! I would love to go back to the days when a cold was just a cold! Instead of now, when a cold could turn into a need for oxygen, a case of pneumonia or even a hospital stay! I hate that I let myself get so worried and anxious! It really consumes my emotions, fearing the worst. Why do I do this to myself?! I guess it's because I never want to set foot into a hospital again as long as I live and that Gavin is my sole responsibility for the most part. I keep telling myself to take a deep breath, relax and that God has it all under control, but I haven't quite convinced myself of this. Which in turn, makes me feel guilty as well, because I know that God will give me the strength to get through whatever happens!
Please pray that Gavin handles this cold well and that he is able to stay home and off oxygen. (His O2 Sats are lower than his norm, but he is holding his own for now.) Pray that he gets over this soon and that I don't work myself into a mess! My state of emotions were already fragile for some reason, and this isn't helping the matter! Pray that I can realize that I am not the one in control and that I must remember to focus on the ONE WHO is!
Have a great weekend and try to stay healthy! Thank you for your prayers!
I'm trying to focus on this:
"Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You." Psalm 56:3
And even though I just posted this one last week, it's another one that I'm continually telling myself to remember:
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6