Wednesday, October 22, 2008

My sight made clear

Earlier this week I had an eye opening experience. The funny thing is, at the time, I could not physically see very well. I wear contacts everyday because I hate the feeling of glasses on my nose. Anyway, on Monday I was just going about my business, when all of a sudden I couldn't see very well out of my right eye. I thought that maybe I had something in my eye, so I put some eyedrops in it. This didn't help at all. I kept closing one eye at a time to see just how different my sight was in each eye. It was drastically different, so I began to get worried. I thought maybe something was wrong with my eye. Maybe I was going blind in that eye or I was having a stroke or something. Yes, I am prone to thinking in depth a little bit too much, but that's another story all together! Anyway, finally I decided to take out the contact to clean it, hoping this would help. Guess what? There wasn't a contact in that eye! It had been, but somehow it popped out without my even knowing it! (I have yet to find it, by the way!) And, because I am prone to analyze everything, I came to a conclusion throughout this process, that I am now going to share with all of you.

Before I do this I want to share with you something that I read this week. I read that, in the last month, people are increasingly more worried and anxious. The percentage of people who say that they are happy with their life has dropped significantly. The number of happy people went from 70% to 59%. So, between my worrying about my going blind and reading these statistics, I started really thinking about being happy and content.

I feel like I am still one of those people who are in the happy category. I am thankful for this! I started thinking about my life. Having a child with special needs brings about a lot of worries! Yet, for the most part, I am quite happy. Yes, I worry. Yes, I wish Gavin had a brighter future ahead. Yes, I wish I didn't have so many responsibilities. (Medications, Doctor visits, Breathing Treatments, Keeping everything straight, Worrying about his heart, Worrying that he may never even sit up one day, Worrying about him coming in contact with germs due to his decreased immune system...and the list goes on.) But, even with all of this, I am happy! I have so much to be thankful for! And, Gavin is very high on that list! So, why am I able to stay in the 'happy' category? I'll tell you why. God! I can't even put into words how happy His promises to me, affect me emotionally! Without Him, I know that I would be in the unhappy category right now!

Our country is facing some big changes and it affects all of us. I find myself getting caught up in it all and worrying about it, but then I remember that I have no reason to worry! God has a plan! He has promised, to those that believe in Him, a future with Him! A future of happiness that will trump anything here on earth! Because of Him, I can see clearly. I can look past the chaos and see a bright future. I can see clearly, but only because of Him! And, I know that this knowledge is a gift! Like our pastor said Sunday, Faith is a gift! Thank You, Lord, for this Awesome gift! So, if you would have rated your happiness level as being lower than a month ago, please try to look to the ONLY One Who can bring you true happiness...Our Almighty Maker of heaven and earth! He gave us this country and He has blessed it greatly! I just pray that Americans will look to Him when they place their votes this November! May God continue to Bless America!

"Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you that even when Soloman in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all of these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about it's own things. Sufficient for the day is it's own trouble." Matthew 6:25-34


Cathy said...

Thank you so much for the truth in this post. Our special babies make us happy. The reality is that they also make us soooooooooo
Happy also.

Anonymous said...

Those are some of my very favorite verses of the bible as I am an "official worrier" myself! I am glad to hear the wonderful progress Gavin is making. He looks SO good and seems like he is really starting to show his wonderful personality. All those smiles are rewards for you guys - cherish them, I know I do. Does he laugh out loud and burst into giggles. Those are my favorite things in the whole world to hear - if I can't hear momma or " I love you" I will take the sound of giggles instead - best pic me up for the hardest of days. Aidan will just spontaneously laugh and sometimes I think "Must be God's telling him something awfully funny"

Melissa Hamilton

Shan said...

This is so well put, and it's something I could have said myself. I think since having Marie I'm actually happier than I was before. It's like things have actually come into focus. Our babies are incredible blessings, but really, they're little messengers I think. Thank you so much, it was good to read!

Annette Gysen said...

Isn't it exciting to realize that? That your outlook on life--how you think and feel--can only be explained by God. And we probably only realize that when there aren't any reasons--worldly speaking--to be happy or content or at peace. It's good to know the Maker of Heaven and Earth. Whatever would we do otherwise? Great post!

Tamara said...

Wow, Alicia this is so well said! I think you need to dog-ear this one and add it to that book I think you should publish one day!

Thank you for this reminder... thank you for typing out this awesome scripture! Thank you for being transparent and thank you for wearing contacts... See how God uses the sillist things to show us His truth!

Love ya, tam a.k.a: d.r.c.u.f.a.j.h.b.a.t. he-he!

Hope said...

I have just found your blog and wanted to tell you what an amazing inspiration you are. God has gifted you! Gavin is a true miracle. Bless your hearts, you've done such an amazing job with all the obsticales. If He sees you to it, He will see you through it!