Tuesday, March 13, 2012

It just hits me.....right in the heart!

A couple of weeks ago I read something that caused me to spiral into tears. This happens to me every month or so. I can be having a perfectly fine day, and then a thought enters my head and all the feelings, concerning Gavin and his lot in this life, begin to flow right out of me! I suppose it's a good thing to have the ability to release the emotions.....the emotions that tend to build up inside when caring for a child like Gavin.

At the time, I had just read a comment to someone else that was congratulating them on the birth of their child. Just a simple comment of, "Oh, he's just perfect!" That's all it took to open the flood gates of my soul!

It brought me back to the day Gavin was born, and the months following his birth.

I don't recall having anyone say such a comment to me after Gavin was born. And, looking back on those days, I felt a little cheated. These thoughts might seem quite silly, but that's what I was thinking at the time.

This got me thinking about God's creation. Look around you! His creation IS perfect! And, this includes Gavin as well! It includes everything He has made!

If you know someone who has a child similiar to Gavin, I ask that you tell them, "Congratulations!" Be happy around them, and for them! They might be fearful of the future, but they are still happy to have this child, and they still think their baby is perfect! Every baby is a gift from God, and the parents need to see your happiness for them, and to hear you tell them that their baby "is perfect". Trust me.....reaching out to them in this manner will mean so much to them! They will appreciate you more than you know!

This Momma certainly sees God's perfect creation when she looks at the pictures above of her sweet boy!

I am so thankful that God gave me, and all of us, the following verse to focus on! It always amazes me that He thought of everything we need to know, and shared it with us in His Word! What a source of comfort! What an awesome God!

"For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well." Psalm 139:13-14


Lacey said...

Wow, that post surgery pic looks just like Jax with the huge distended belly! Our children are indeed perfect, and I don't know if i ever got a comment like that when he was born either!

Heather said...

I don't think I have seen a few of those pictures before! So sweet Gavin is. Perfect in every way. And like you and Lacey, never got the congratulations. Even to this day, I often get the pity look. And sometimes, if Zoey isn't with me, and I say I have a daughter that has Down syndrome, I get the "Oh, I'm sorry." To which I quickly say, don't you EVER be sorry. Be jealous. Because I am so blessed and lucky.

Isn't it funny about the tears? How we think we are all good with the extra's that came with the extra chromosome and then in an instant. Boom. Ask Lacey about M. E. that was at Zoey's party. Talk about a rock star. I love her. She is truly amazing. But sometimes, when I talk about her and talk about how she goes to college and she is in the television industry and I speak about her impeccable manners and social skills, well, the tears come and I know it is because I know what we won't ever have. That zoey will never be that. And as much as I am at peace with that on most days, and I know that Zoey is just who she was always meant to be, I still know that my heart hurts a bit for what will never be.

Love to you my friend and kisses to your perfect and beautiful boy.

Anonymous said...

If every birth a miracle
than no life is easy
and no death simple.

Missie said...

Gavin was and IS an adorable boy! I can't imagine how you feel or what you go through on a daily basis (although I do know a little bit, as you know). God gave Gavin the perfect family, and He knew what He was doing when he entrusted you with this angel! Know that there are many out here who love you and your family!

shirlgirl said...

I saw your blog on Caleb's list of friends. Your son is beautiful in every way and perfect. He has a sweet smile. His middle name is the same as my husband who has since passed away from cancer. I have a great niece with Down's, and she is the sweetest, happiest, gentlest girl ever. She has 9 brothers and sisters who adore her. You have been blessed with a beautiful child and God chose you to care for him. How very special.

Annette Gysen said...

Thanks for sharing with us how to be a help and comfort to others. I've always been in love with Gavin and thought he was perfect just the way God made him. He's a beautiful boy!

Colleen said...

There isn't a more perfect child than our SN kids. They don't know the bad side of life and sin like we do. We are blessed to have these perfect angels from heaven!